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haven't checked anyone's LJ in a long time. haven't posted in longer. so... update:
Besides my Intro to Rhetoric professor's merciless attendance policy, which already guarantees i cant pass even with a 100 average, school is going well. I am learning.
My new job is pretty cool. I tutor K-12 kids in any and every math class there is. Mathnasium is kinda like the Sylvan Learning Center, but specialized in math. Sometimes it's really hard. The math isn't hard; explaining it in a way that makes sense to a kid who is completely lost is. But it's totally worth it when that look of, "Oh, I get it now!" crosses their face. Apparently I'm pretty good at it. The owner has asked me to do some 1 on 1 sessions with an ADD kid being pulled out of school to be home-schooled. What that means is I'm going to be responsible for teaching this kid math. Not filling in the gaps left by the teacher. Teaching. They also want me to prepare one guy for a college calculus class. I didn't think it was a big deal until they told me that the only other person they've ever asked to do something like that is now the 2nd in command. Someone also offered free maid services in exchange for tutoring to pass their GED. Fuck yeah. I am teaching.
But what I've been doing for free has been the most significant, I think. I shouldn't really get into any details. Broken home and broken bones, unloved, unsupported, alone. i loved someone because they needed me to. i helped someone grow. i gave someone hope. i saved something beautiful. it's an amazing feeling. I am making a difference. |
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| 04:30pm 28/08/2006 |
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My phone broke and I don't have anyone's numbers. Call me or post yer # if yer brave. Peace! |
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| 01:18pm 26/08/2006 |
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Until you make peace with who you are, you'll never be content with what you have.
Doris Mortman
We would worry less about what others think of us if we realized how seldom they do.
Ethel Barrett
He who postpones the hour of living rightly is like the rustic who waits for the river to run out before he crosses.
Horace (65 BC - 8 BC)
Seriousness is the only refuge of the shallow.
Oscar Wilde (1854 - 1900)
The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.
Mahatma Gandhi (1869 - 1948)
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| 04:32am 09/08/2006 |
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This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath
No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again
And on the radio
You hear November Rain
That solo's awful long
But it's a good refrain
You listen to it twice
'Cause the DJ is asleep
On the radio
(oh oh oh)
On the radio
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio - uh oh
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| 03:16am 09/08/2006 |
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I don't want to freak anyone out, but i cleaned my room tonight. |
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| Let's bounce rocksteady! Man I'm ready to roll! |
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| 03:35pm 26/07/2006 |
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I guess I'm in one of my reckless phases. You have to think that when you miss work cause you drank too much at a naked party, and then you pass out in Steve's bed and wake up on the couch to the Beverly Hillbillies with 20 minutes to get to work, and then you stay up till 6:30 this morning talking to someone you haven't seen in 6 years when you had shitty sleep the day before and have to be at work at 9:30. I started to feel bad about myself like I do when I get restless and reckless like this. Then I realized how much fun I've been having just letting myself get mixed up in shit. The structured safe life is nice sometimes, but it's stifling as hell. When I'm in responsible mode, or as close as I come to it, I feel some satisfaction at maintaining the lifestyle adults are expected to. But a reserved lifestyle seems to dull the feeling of being alive. I dunno how to explain exactly what I mean. I'll borrow my PA homie's chest tattoo to try and splain it. "Beauty Transcends Being" It's like this ... There's beauty/life/whatever you want to call it in everything if you're willing and able to see it. But the more you restrict your experiences and emotional sensitivity, the less you see of it. If you experience it, then you have a a real understanding of it, not just a description of it; it's like connecting in the truest possible way. Connecting like that gives meaning/hope/whatever to an endless cycle of wake, eat, shit, work, eat, sleep, repeat. Or maybe Operation Ivy says it better,
"jaded eyes see clearly but only half of whats there
good old days are left behind whats left is boredom and despair
but sometimes every once in a while
its beautiful I would say, I wouldn't have it any other way"
Maybe I'm way off on this. You know how little kids experience a sense of awe and wonder at things you don't even think about. Do we all just get world weary and eventually give in to the zombie half-life of "normal" life. I mean, I would like to have the money and the safety and possibilities it creates. But if there were no money, no cars, no computers, I'd probably be nomading it from place to place, seeing all sorts of shit I never noticed before, hunting and adventuring around. Of course I wouldn't have all the creature comforts, hygeine, and MySpace. Hahaha! But I wouldn't know any better anyway, so I wouldn't know what I was missing. I guess you would still get world weary if life were like that, but at least the scenery would change a lot more. I'm just rambling now.
So, anyway. I guess I'll continue to do whatever the fuck I feel like. I just need to be a little more careful about my responsibilities, and ease up on the alcohol. I did just put another friend in the ground due to reckless alcohol use. It's sad. And scary, cause it's a familiar story. The girl he loved and was living with left him, got with someone else. Apparently his self-destructiveness and alcoholism got progressively worse as time went by. He got fat. Stopped caring about himself. Pretty much gave up on life. Makes me wonder how I woulda ended up had I stayed in that circle of friends rather than you people. And had I not had Rancid. Seriously, Rancid.
Who I'm going to see Thursday for the first time! Jesus, they've been the most influential band in my life since I was 13 , and I've never seen em play. I know no one else really likes them and some think they just suck. Oh, that is very untrue. Matt Freeman is one of the worlds best bassists. Tim Armstrong shits music. When you consider that he has written literally hundreds of songs, and each one meant something to someone, and then consider the range of music that he has created, I don't see how you can deny his talent. You may not like his voice, and that's fine. I can accept how some people just don't "get" it, or like it. I don't get Radiohead. But listen to songs like Poison, then Life Won't Wait, then Red Hot Moon, and then pop in some Pink, and then pop in some Madonna, and then pop in Corazon de Oro. If you still think the man is just a shitty punk rocker, you're obviously retarded. ahahahaha! so here's how it happened that I'm finally going to see them. Stacy says, "Hey Rancid is playing Thursday night in Memphis." I say "Damn, we should go." I'm thinking of all the reasons I can't go and how irresponsible that would be, while she tells me her best friend's band is opening for them, she can probably get us in free, and I can most likely meet Tim Armstrong and give him our CD. "No, no, I have work the next day, and it's like 4 hours ... wait, fuck it. Let's do this shit!" And it's going to be fucking awesome! Yay for taking your panties off and not being a self-defeating faggot pussy. |
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| 04:42am 22/07/2006 |
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Dude, hanging out with Slow Roasted was fun as shit!!! Ahaha!! Steve didn't go. Sucks for Steve. :( It was an adventure through hookas, rain, and bad chase scenes ... and reggae music ... and fuck, i forgot to go to Hardees for hashbrowns ... no, McDonalds hashbrowns, mmm ...
but i did go all fucking chuck norris when i heard some shit, and then remembered greg is gone.
i was so ready to roundhouse a mother fucker ... except if he had a gun .. or a big knife . i'd run like a 12 year old girl then |
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| La la la la la |
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| 03:38pm 18/07/2006 |
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I haven't been keeping up with everyone's journals and haven't seen some of you much at all recently. I suppose I'm just focusing on myself right now. There are some things I need to figure out. I have "plans" for the future and all that. I just need to figure out what I want for myself in the detail department. Which is always a problem when what you want can be so totally different. Part of the whole self-discovery process was accepting that I am this mess of warring natures. The best way to deal with it is to just be whoever it is I am that day, and if it's inconsistent with the me i was yesterday, it's better to go with it than beat myself up. The integer thing is like a middle ground to come back to if I get lost in extremes of any given nature. Which has been working fine and dandy for me alone. I'm a fairly happy dude. When you factor in relationships with others, it gets a little tougher. I told myself I wouldn't jump into any relationships before I had a good idea if we were really compatible. I'll readily admit that if it weren't for some circumstances beyond my control, I would probably have another relationship destined to fail on my hands right now. I put myself out there to feel people out. I get a little over-excited sometimes, and ol reckless me sprints for the finish line head straight up, trying to ignore the hurdles as I crash through them. I thought I had found someone who "fit" me. She fits a part of me. But now that I have had time to step back, see some other options, see more of the world, and get a better grasp on what my future might look like, I can totally see myself getting bored in that relationship. It sounds harsh, but it's true, I always do, with everyone, even Rose. So, it's back to the drawing board on the perfect woman for me. Maybe I've been looking too much at the good qualities in people that match well, and too little at the inevitable bad qualities. Maybe what I need is someone just as fucked up as I am. Like maybe a bad girl with a good heart, cause a good girl with a bad streak is probably just a bitch. Ahaha! But seriously. Maybe I can find someone who'll jump off the pedestal with me, rather than someone who'll just watch disapprovingly from on high. Maybe I'll find an honest and loving beautiful disaster of my own. Sounds good. Ahahaha. I dunno. Within a weeks time I'll have to have a conversation with someone who I'm sure has certain expectations of me. And I'm dreading it.
And I need to clean my room. And I need keep up my new practice habits.
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| 03:35am 14/07/2006 |
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flee flee, everyone get out of this town! it's lame! it's true. welcome to Anywheresville, USA. Why are you still here? Go! |
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| 03:46pm 08/07/2006 |
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I totally missed work today. Slept right through it. I was the only person scheduled. I am leaving Quest in August, but I might get fired first. Fuck fuck fuck. I saw naked girls last night. One was good looking. Does that make up for it? Naked girls > work. Yeah, that makes sense.
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| 08:05pm 06/07/2006 |
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Hi hi hi. Not a whole lot to report here. Touring was fun, and very much a pain. The most important part was hearing that the band definitely has "it" from a big timer like Richard from Drive Thru. I guess I got used to being around lots of people and having something going on. Now I'm all alone in the apartment, and I don't know what to do with myself. I should clean my room. I should ... |
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| 06:46am 17/06/2006 |
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We just got flashed off the road by a trucker who saw sparks coming off pie van. Alex got out to see what the problem was. Seconds later he's yelling for us to get out of the van. Seems something under the van was red hot. Yeah, like i'm surprised the gas tank didn't explode type hot. Totally close to kaboom and dead hot. Alex from BIOB got a picture after it cooled a little. But now we are standing on the side of the interstate, singing along to some MxPx, throwin the football around, and generally having a good time. Come morning we'll figure out what to do next. Whee, being a rockstar is the funnzor! |
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| 07:03pm 15/06/2006 |
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I havenm't had much to write about recently. I'm excited about touring. These things always seem to get fucked up and this time was no exception. With 7 people, it's bound to happen I suppose. That's 7 opportunities for irresponsibility, stupidity, availability, and all sorts of other problems to bring down the whole house of cards at any given moment. But we still have one full week on the road, and then some spots here and there. And that makes me a happy boy.
That's it.
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| Yay! I finally got it. |
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| 04:02pm 02/06/2006 |
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It's no masterpiece. I won't be showing this bad boy off on the cover of any tattoo magazines anytime soon. This one was for me. So I guess it doesn't really matter if anyone else understands what it means. Maybe I just really like math terms. Haha. Anyone who has read most of my posts probably has a good idea of what it is all about. But I will give an explanation for anyone interested. You guys are partly responsible for the the events that led to me getting it after all.
*integer -gra -grum (1) [complete , whole, entire, intact; fresh, sound, unexhausted]; 'in integrum restituere', [to restore to its former condition]. (2) in quality, [unspoilt, pure, fresh]; morally, [innocent, uncorrupted, pure]; in thought or feeling, [balanced, unbiased, impartial]; of matters for discussion or action, [unprejudiced, undecided]; 'integrum est mihi', [I am at liberty]. (3) [renewed, begun afresh]. Hence adv. integre, [wholly; honestly, uprightly, impartially]; of style, [purely, correctly]
I won't repeat the Roman soldier story. It's back a month or so if you want to read it.
Ok, so the tattoo is basically a symbol for the personal growth and self-discovery that brought me out of depression to a place where I feel whole. A tribute to the struggle and the people who helped me through it.
I am an idealist. Always have been. I never went to church, and so I pretty much got to develop my own sense of morality. Ideals provided a sense of purpose and meaning and so I clung to them. I was fascinated by ideals like a knight's chivalry, and concepts of innocence, virtue, selflessness, sacrifice, the meaning of life, and the how people ought to live life, etc. I was quick to adopt any ideal presented by anyone who appeared to have it all figured out. I wanted that kind of clarity. So, eventually I've got all these great ideals that are neither attainable nor consistent. Being introspective, I would constantly measure myself and others against these ideals. I was weak and despised weakness in others and in myself. I lost my virginity and had started getting drunk by 14, but somehow thought it sad how kids lost their innocence and grew up fast. I was the selfish kid who thought people should share and help each other selflessly. I was the hypocrite who hated hypocrites. You get the picture. I could never meet my own standards, and started on the downward spiral from self-doubt to self-loathing and eventually to good old fashioned depression. All cause of these silly little notions we like to carry around. That and the whole loss of love thing.
So, consistent with my inconsistency, I get myself a Livejournal (thanks Steph) after declaring that the people on LJ are just selfish people who act melodramatic online so people will give them attention. Haha. Long story short ... actually writing out my thoughts allowed me to sit back and take an honest look at myself. You guys all gave me the attention I needed according to my melodrama. I put myself back together slowly, moderated my ideals and learned to accept things and people the way they are, to be honest with myself, and to not carry useless negativity with me. Integer is just the face for my new practical ideals. Ideals that are merely a collection of good ideas, not a system of worth. And through these I am whole, complete. My spirit is full and undiminished. I am morally sound by my own standards, not those of a crazy ass world or some outdated philosopher or fantasy novel. Understanding myself honestly helps me understand others and be unbiased and non-judgemental. Simply put, fix yourself, become a whole person, and the rest will follow. Works for me.
The Roman soldier story talks about how the soldiers punched their breastplate over the heart to make sure there was adequate protection for that most vital organ. I got the tattoo over my heart where I could see it everyday, and have it serve as a reminder of what I learned. Symbolically, it is my heart's armor. It keeps my sense of love and beauty from being injured.
So there you have it. Hopefully I won't have to explain it anymore. Cause I'm sick of being melodramatic with you people! :)
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| 03:26pm 01/06/2006 |
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I never really believd in astrology or anything without significant hard evidence to back up it's claims. I still don't, but I tooled around some astrological websites on my Blackberry while making the trek to Florence and back. The daily horoscopes were almost always so vague, they could mean anything. The descriptions of the typical character of people of each sign was what intrigued me. My birthday is October 24, which is right on the cusp of the transition from Libra and Scorpio. It's listed as the first day of Scorpio. Here are descriptions for both I guess I'll make the stuff that stuck out the most bold):
Scorpio (Oct. 24 - Nov. 22)
Yourself.
You are able to summon up more power and intensity than any other sign of the Zodiac for the key phrase to describe you is - I desire - and you will pursue them through thick and thin since staying power is another of your assets. You are much concerned with transformation on any level, which includes sex and romance where you will pour out all your energies. In any endeavour it is important that you think through (not that I usually do) what you are seeking since you will pursue it with great intensity and determination, your willpower is ready to endure any trial seeking satisfaction so that even death or humiliation can prove insufficient deterrent. In a work situation you can create crisis situations in your mind where you feel unable to delegate and exhaust yourself. You hate to see weakness in yourself or others though you are prepared to offer practical help to get them back on their feet where they can help themselves again.
Diplomacy is not a strong suit with you since you prefer to tell the truth or not speak at all, you are also driven to investigate the true nature of things and are good at probing secrets which can include those of people as well as the worlds of business and science. You are highly secretive by nature even though you are exceptionally good at discovering those of other people. You have a deep affinity for the the regenerative power of nature which you can apply to your own circumstances, the secret of your applied power.
Friends and lovers.
You are careful and choosy in your selection of mates and friends so that you are rarely disappointed in them, you start a relationship slowly and carefully and cultivate it along the way. Once you are in a close relationship you will be quite prepared to make sacrifices to preserve it. However there is a dynamic side to you, you can hardly resist a quarrel or a fight and must prove you are right, this can mean people find you tempestuous as you seek to divide and remix in your search for the right relationship ingredients. People are attracted by this dynamism however, you have an animal like sexuality and excitement which comes across in the face you show the world as well as in bed. In romance you are intense and dynamic, there is little you will not do to satisfy both friends and lovers but you do expect the same commitment in return. Intensity is all and relationships that are shallow have no appeal for you, you expect compliments and appreciation from those around you and are quite capable of reacting violently to criticism or frustration of your behaviour and desires. This moody tempestuousness needs to be controlled if you are to show more sympathy and win greater popularity from others.
Sex drive.
Your moods are unpredictable and this produces an unreliable temperament that complicates your love life although you are more suited than most to controlling your sex drive when you want to. You are tireless and determined in your pursuit of your passions and can win the affection of those who interest you through sheer doggedness. Your sex drive is always there and you are capable of keeping going long after others have fallen by the roadside but even your constitution can be weakened by over self indulgence. Your sheer energy makes you an interesting partner for you can bring all your powers into play in the sex act and be an excellent lover, with self control helping you along the way to sexual fulfilment.
Your relations can be either extremely happy or the reverse even with the same person, for there is a part of you that is inclined to go to extremes in any relationship. When in love you are able to give utter devotion to your mate and lose the temptation to stray.
You are likely to stray on occasion to seek out sexual adventure but are well able to separate out this from your domestic life which is kept in a completely different compartment.
Libra (Sept. 24 - Oct. 23)
Yourself.
You are under the rulership of the planet Venus and have an instinctive grace and charm, proportion and harmony, a phrase to describe you is - I balance - since you seek to reconcile differences and wish for both approval and popularity, however you are loath to compromise your principles having an awareness that this could bring about your downfall. There is a strong sense of justice and fair play within you so that you are likely to take on the defence of the underdog. You seek to work in co-operation with others and are very concerned to form companionships and partnerships since you find it hard to work in isolation once you have conceived and initiated projects. Your leaning is to taking action on your perceptions.
You are likely to work conscientiously once past the age of early youth, 29, and are interested in new ideas and mental stimulus since you are intellectually inclined as well as being drawn to the arts, public relations, psychology the law, beauty and fashion. Good taste is important to you and you will go out of your way to avoid disharmony in both surroundings and companions. You rarely let your anger get the better of you but when you do explode nothing is left unsaid as you purge your soul and seek to regain emotional equilibrium, at least these flashes of rage soon pass like a tropic storm having shaken everything in its path.
Friends and lovers
Behind the apparent detached approach you bring to relationships beats a romantic heart that excels all other star signs in the quality of loving that you can provide your partner. You rarely surrender yourself completely to another but are an expert in love matters, with considerable passion and care for the loved one. You revel in social settings but your very friendliness with associates belies the fact that you let very few into your intimate circle. You are quick to anger but let the storm blow itself out just as quickly. You hate to hurt others and prefer to avoid doing or saying anything that will upset the harmony in a relationship. You are well regarded in your social set because people sense your innate regard for honesty and courtesy, while you really enjoy being with your friends and colleagues. With lovers you can be voluptuous, seeking to raise the level of the relationship to one of art with your delicate touches, you are great company to be with and extend the hand of sympathy as well as love to keep things on your desired plane, in fact you find it easier to give than to take in a relationship.
Sex drive.
You are likely to be too idealistic in your search for the perfect partner, seeking a concept rather than the reality of a person with their foibles. You would rather not know about unpleasant realities and are quite capable of being taken in by flattery. If this search for perfection is taken to extremes you could become isolated and frustrated, only getting involved later in life with someone else. Yet you have a great desire for companionship and partnership, for you value sympathy and understanding above all else. Underneath your charm and ideals you can strike others as preoccupied and selfish since you prefer to ignore any unpleasant home truths and can leave your partner feeling uncared for, or their needs not taken care of. You love nothing more than the rituals of love, the chase, the catch, the courting, the preliminaries and even where you know someone well there will be a gradual build up to the sex act, with flirtations and suggestions all along the way until you have them under your spell. Sexual satisfaction will only come when you learn not to measure out your affections according to the response for this can produce a sense of everything being too ordered and predictable. Give your imagination greater play and you are the most interesting lover in the zodiac!
If you are a man, you find it very hard to resist female interest (ding ding ding) and wiles and are wide open to flattery from them. You thrive on the boost to your ego. Women are often happy to provide it.
Female Librans are happy to play the field and enjoy the chase, they are in no hurry to settle down, preferring to continue looking for Mr Right.
When I read the Scorpio description, I was pretty amazed at how I could relate to almost all of it. Then I read the Libra description, and found I could relate to most of it as well, maybe moreso. Maybe it's just the way they write these things; so everyone can identify at least on some level. It does lean toward flattering the reader, making it easier to swallow. So I read through the the others to check it out, and while I could cherrypick parts from each, none were nearly as close as these two. But some of the others didn't match up with people I know decently well.
I dunno, I just thought it was interesting. You guys should go read the description of your sign and see how it matches up. Then let me know how close or far off it was. Here is the link for the site I used http://www.kozmikhoroscopes.com/stars.htm. It'll be an experiment.
I don't suppose the belief that heavenly bodies can effect people is any less far-fetched than any other belief system people accept entirely on faith. At least the planets and gravity can be observed to have an effect on their surroundings. Anyway, peace, love, ass-grabbing. |
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| Raw Fish alert!!!! |
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| 05:01pm 31/05/2006 |
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Sushi tonight at about 7:20. Same place as usual. I think the long wait and poor service must add some sort of flair, and that is why we keep coming back. Call or text me if you are coming so I can get a proper table for us. |
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| 04:58pm 31/05/2006 |
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I was looking through my games last trying to find something fun to play for an hour or two before I went to sleep. I was in a Star Wars mood, but i've beaten all the ones I own several times. And I was sad cause I had downloaded Republic Commando, but had deleted it in a frenzy to clear hard drive space. Then I came across a zip file called X-Wing Alliance that had somehow escaped my data holocaust. Memories of the old TIE Fighter game flashed through my head. I found my dad's supah realistic force feedback flight stick he had when he was practicing to get his pilot's liscence, and had given to me cause he thought it was broken. Turns out the power cord just needed to be replaced. I had the beast up and running in no time. So, I fire up the game expecting to see some grotesquely outdated graphics accompanied by equally shitty sound...
Dramatization: (May differ slightly from actual events)
Five hours later I'm making a desperate run from a fully equipped Star Destroyer, trying to make the jump to hyperspace. I've got a full squadron of TIE's right on my ass. I'm yelling for someone to man the turret on my Correlian TY-2000, and for my co-pilot to divert all power to aft shields. Then I get rocked by a photon torpedo. The flightstick tries to break my arm as I attempt to recover from the wild spin the explosion sends me into. Beer bottles are still rattling on my desk from the vibration delivered via the surround sound speakers, complete with sub-woofer, when flashing lights and blaring alarms signal another torpedo locked and closong fast. I drop a few chaff to throw the torpedo off course and buy me just a few more seconds. I was already smashing the button to activate the hyperdrive just as the ship's nav-computer indicated a plot had been set. I made it. I had no shields and the damage to the ship's thrusters made maneuvering extremely difficult. But I survived. I sent out a distress signal and hoped that the information I was given about being able to find and take refuge with the Rebel Alliance here was reliable. Then I wondered if Greg was trying to sleep. Ha!
Man, why don't they make good space combat sims anymore. it's not like you need to render diverse lush interactive enviroments. It's space for pete's sake. Take the heap of money that saves you, hire some good voice actors, some talented CG people for cut-scenes, make a bunch of recyclable ship/space-station models, throw in some unique models, planets, space anomalies, get a good immersive GUI, add a good physics engine minus gravity and air surface friction, set it up in a big black 3D environment with a bunch of white spots all over ... BAM! Sweet game! Add a non-linear kick ass story arc, and you've got yourself a top tier money maker. So Phil, Jay, when can I expect you will have this done for me? Shit, I'd pay full price for TIE fighter with updated graphics and sound.
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| 03:23pm 27/05/2006 |
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When I wake up in the morning
And the alarm gives out a warning
And I don't think I'll ever make it on time
By the time I grab my books
And I give myself a look
I'm at the corner just in time to see the bus fly by
It's alright 'coz I'm saved by the bell
If the teacher pops a test
I know I'm in a mess
And my dog ate all my homework last night
Right alone in my chair
She won't know that I'm there
If I can hand it in tomorrow it will be alright
It's alright 'coz I'm ...
Holy shit! Titties!
I love you Kelly Kapowski |
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| Help! Tattoo Me! |
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| 09:18pm 24/05/2006 |
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This post is mainly for Vaughn, so he can help me with my tattoo ideas. Any of you other artsy schmartsies who think they can hook me up with a sweet looking tattoo feel free. Greg, if you have time and the desire, I think you'd be able to come up with something I'd really like. I'll do something nice for whoever hooks me up. Feel free to add your opinion as well. I can only post the links, since the actual images are copy protected.
Shoulder tattoo: Ok. For this one, I really want something that is going to "fit" the shape of my shoulder. I dont want something "on" my shoulder. More akin to a sleeve than a sticker, if you catch my meaning. Think pauldron. I also don't want much natural skin color showing through. Goes hand-in-hand with not being on my shoulder, but actually "being" my shoulder. If it's going to mess up a really good design, then it's ok for some skin to show.
#1) http://www.tattoojohnny.com/tattoo-design-view.asp?sku=JDF-00011
-I think this one is my favorite so far. Vaughn if you could customize this one for me, I would be most gracious. My idea is to have a lifeguard style cross for Chris in the middle. I can't remember exactly how your's are right now, but something similar to that should be fine. Red and black are good colors. I trust your creative instincts.
#2 http://www.tattoojohnny.com/tattoo-design-view.asp?sku=MSF-00022
-I like this one a lot too. The sunburst is pretty cool, and I like dragons (not geckos). I think the lifeguard symbol might be cool in this one also.
#3 http://www.tattoojohnny.com/tattoo-design-view.asp?sku=TRF-00025
-This is similar to the skull idea I had a while back. I think these designs fit shoulders really well. But then I would have a skull, which doesn't really carry any meaning. And you can't get a much more generic tattoo than a skull.
Chest: I pretty much already know what I'm going to do here. I'm gonna get the Latin word "INTEGER" in a font very close to that found on the Trajan Column. The symbolism for this one I put in a post from a while back, http://turbert.livejournal.com/17004.html if you want to check it out. The only question is, should I get it across my entire chest, or just over my heart? I think either has the potential to look really cool or just kinda misplaced.
Back: I want to put some wings on my DRAGON. If anyone wants to draw me up a cool tribal style wing design, I'd much rather get something original than some generic crap. This one isn't very high priority, I just thought I'd put it out there.
Someone please help me! I can't even draw a straight line, much less a a cool design I would want to put on my body permanently. Thanks!
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I really like the way this guy puts red, black, and white together. Thought it might help to list stuff that caught my eye.
http://www.tattoojohnny.com/tattoo-design-gallery.asp?a=21&min=true |
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| Poor poor Phil |
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| 08:51pm 23/05/2006 |
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Went shooting basketballs again tonight. Talked Phil into coming too. After about 20 minutes of being the only white boy out of 25 or so people there, Phil showed up. 15 minutes later Phil leaves with a broken finger. I was on the phone with Steve when it happened. Phil came to me and showed me his finger, and I thought he had jammed it and was just holding it funny. Nope, it was broken. He was so calm about it, I didn't think it was serious. I would've been yelling all sorts of foul things. And now I feel bad, cause I didn't even offer to drive him to the hospital. I'm sorry Phil! I didn't understand! I won't give you a hard time about coming to do sporty stuff anymore. Everyone pray for Phil's little broken finger. |
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